everything could delight me, enighting, delighting is not deterministic (luckily). (real senseless cruelty never delighted me, but revenge in some cases can be delighting like love, sex, curiosity, surprise)

There is view active listening in the society today, people that have a fixed opinion, don't disbelieve the illusion's of their constructed reality, even if they suffering under. Awareness is a inwardly initiation, you can only give hints.

I'am less afraid, but still too much.

my political attitude, cause I have no conventional opinion: I believe that not all people are equal concerning skills, genetics and ... but they should have the same human rights. Acting only selfish or only altruistic is stupid.

in doubt about everything, analyzing, traumatized